The year that was.........

29th December 2006

Effectively 57 hrs 45 minutes for this year to end....and a brand new sun to rise!!

Here I am looking back at a year that has turned my life upside down or downside up..whichever way you wanna call it!! Strange it is that I dont remember anything before October 2006...as if the year just began after that!! No doubt there were a lot of things that happened...u know this life never ceases to amuse me!!But come October and I was taken on a rollercoater ride that I never bargained for!!!

The last 3 months have been full of drama....good, bad and the ugly!! The ugly being predominant!! I dont know where to start evaluating the year from..rather how to evaluate the year...the year that was...!!

lets start with the good (not much to write so will be easy to evaluate):
Job
New friends
Recognition: I would not lie but being in the "limelight" does have its flipside no doubt but is not that bad either!!
No point discussing each one in detail...have written a lot about it already!![:)]

Now comes the bad:

[Lets not open up the Pandora's box....too many things...some small some big....still trying to make them a little better!!]


The ugly:
Actually its a little confusing....whether its ugly or the ugliest!!! This year has been probably the worst of my life!! So many things have changed..so many things that have made me so wary of everthing..everyone...My faith shook at richter scale of probably 10!! Trust was no where to be found!!Loss was all that gave me company!! This year..there was no summer sun and no winter warmth but a cold silent air all around me...The colour was all grey...no pastels...no pinks...no blues....I woudnt shy away from telling "orange" how much I missed it!!

The year has almost ended..and I look up...and tell that guy sitting up there..that there is someone down below who really reans his care and support....someone who's tired now and wants the new year to mark the beggining of a new life.....a bright new life!!

Can't really wait for this year to end....Let this sun set....and let all the worries "set" with it!!

Happy New Year!!

One who NEVER can manage to remember the songs!!

He's always made me wonder-"how can u n ot remember songs that you like"?? I mean HOW!!

Jesus!! Thats the 1st thing that comes to my mind besides the "Topi"...He is the "topi" guy...and recently had become the "FM guy" as well just that "uska bhai ka pyar jaag utha!!"[;)]...so now he's the "topi" guy only!!

I think 2006 has been very eventful for me!!We were friends before as well...just that the kind of friendship that we share now...its just evolved!!

Guess it'll keep evolving now that we've landed up with a job at the same place as well...well i.e if I join!![;)]

the bus rides together....the fun that we have in class...my trying to corner him everytime...its been such a "highlight" of the year!! Hey and I am really happy and proud of the fact that because I asked him to...he atleast tried getting rid of a few things....slmost successfully!![:)] (Even if its not so...I dont wanna burst my bubble!![;)])

Oh and now that I have mentiond "something I dont like about you" column for everyone...I dont want you to feel left out!![:)]...Ok so something that I dont like about you...hmmmm....yes...the way you always tease me (seriously or jokingly..whichever way it is) for not taking out time for coffees and movies!!and always "being busy"...IT IS NOT SO...The reasons I give are always so VALID!!..sachi....[:)]

Hey and thanks for always standing up for me....when some "unfortunate" incidents keep happening with me!![:)]...By the way this THANKYOU is for the 2 people I've already written about as well.......!!!

Happy 2007.....and let your resolution be to remember atleast some good lyrics!![:)]

Vanakkam.Nallarikke-Nalla Irukken -My linguistic "guru" is gonna be so proud!!

Again its about someone who's entry was so very sudden...as sudden and as "unexpected" as the tsunami!!(Just adding a litlle dramatic touch to it!![:)])

It all started with something that I dont even knonw whether to categorise as a fight or misunderstanding or what!!But "Hail orkut" and its "publically" visible scraps and not to forget "my long forgotten" habit of "helping" people with movies and songs and actors!!!

A little misunderstanding...the intervention of our such "peace loving" audience....The exchange of cards...Teeny meeny "sorrys" here and there...and two "bright little" kids finding themselves in a brand new relationship!!taadaaaaaaaaa........(How dramatic can I be!!!!)

Anyway...so this is how we became friends...n now...how much we talk..gosh....I am fully "self aare" in the sense that I am a born "talker" but the other person here was always "viewed" as someone so quite and "self contained"...looks always are deceptive...they always are my friends...always!!

Combined "message" studies....and we end our semester!! And I think the "combined studies" did help....dont you think so???

Oh and how can I forget to mention my "growing" vocab of Tamil!! "Suma irida you paei"..[:D] I am telling you...even I can be a good teacher..start learning!! The language lessonos have sure given me and Shashank new "weapons"..[:)]

And do I need to tell this to Mani sir and Rehman sir...what an ardent fan they have???Err...I think I'll leave this matter untouched....cause if I start....the post will go on and on and on....[:)]

But one thing I absolutely "HATE"....the negative attitude!!! Oh comeon.....It doesnot matter whether you are O+ve or not....all that matters is that you "B+ve" always!!![:)]

Enjoy every moment.....and always B+ve!!

How "melodramatic" can I be!!![;)]

We are here by "choice" & not by "compulsion"

Well now i need to be very cautious and particular about my punctuations and grammar and spelling!! Dont create a hue n cry if its wrong or if i use some words "outta context"..[:)]

I dont know what brought us together...really....but it was some force that was missing for so long and all of a sudden-bang- there it comes and -pat- we are friends!! Dont you think this is how we became friends!!??!!?? (A few more exclamations and question marks just to emphasize my point!!!!)

It was this year only...not very long back...when I realised that there was someone else as crazy n "notorious" (rather even better than me at all such things) as me!! Who could give "me" a run for my money when it comes to "expressing" something!!

Its not that we have ever been "enemies" but never had shared what we share now!! This guy that I a talking about "looks" sophisticated and all but....B U T....Jesus Christ....when he comes to his "natural self"!!!!!!!!!!(I can already hear someone say-How Rude!!)

Somewhat lazy but an amazing "planner".....Really I mean it! So what the plans are rarely implemented but you plan really well u know!![;)] We've been working on one proj and hv had millions of "brainstorming" sessions and I am sure WE will DELIVER an absolutely AMAZING product!!![:)]..I have full faith in his "implementation" capabilities!![:)]

Sometimes I wonder...how do we manage to find someone who is so very like us....in almost everything!! Its an amazing feeling...really...errr.....amazing cause I am so great to have found such people!![;)]...just kidding...hey i wonder have i said "Thank you" lately???well Thank You...for eveything!! I think at this point of time we are the only two people who are trying to balance out everything!![;)]...and we have not been doing a bad job at it!!have we???

I hope we stick around for long....actually we will...just that we even work together etc...I hope its not an elusive thought!! I just hope!!

Its been wonderful knowing you...though I know there's a lot yet to discover!!

Hey I forgot....there something I really really hate you for- RUINING MY COMMENTS!!!

[:)]

Have a great year........with "us"

Thrz nthng like 'u n i' -just read it somewhere!!

Well not sure how to start actually am not just thinking where to start from but also what to write...and as I think I write...oh what a deadly combination this is..[;)]

The last post was about one friend and I guess i've started getting into this habit of writing about people...people close to me and people I cherish!![:)]...Well nothing wrong in that...right??? Well i've "Decided" to end this year with "My Thoughts about people".

Lets start with people who frequent this place...hey and no names this time...I know you'll know who you are!![;)]

Well.....This guy has actually got me into a real bad habit-writing long,unending mails!! And this has not started a year or so ago but 6 long years back!! Why did you do this??What fun was it..huh???

Na.....I think i've rediscovered myself-a million times i.e!!

It all started as a casual "hi-hello" thing-the was it always is...we are normal u c!! We exchanged e-mail ids....and bang....we found each other writing a minimum of 2-3 or even more, mails every day!!come back from school log on to net and bang a mail!!! It was fun...it sure was...but what was "funny" was the fact that we never really commmunicated face to face!! It was all mails!!

We got to knw about our likes..our dislikes...what turns us on wht turns us off...the regular -"slam-book" stuff...this continued till we realized what had we been nurturing all this while!!! And when we did realise that...it was beautiful (Was it not??) and still continues to be beautiful!!

While I am writing all this i am re-lining all the moments!! and its such a pleasurable ride down the memory lany...esp when I am who is driving!!

I have always cherished "us" and I know I'll continue doing so...for the rest of my life!! Its been an amazing journey....there surely is nothing like 'u n i'....we rock!![:)]

For You....

This one post is totally..competely..fully dedicated to just one person-Priya Mathur!!

A bright sunny Saturday morning
Venue: School
Occasion/Event/"anything you wanna call it": PTM
Year: 1995

Two young kids helping their respective teachers with setting up the class for yet another "as always exciting" PTM...none of them probably knew that this day will open up a new chapter for them..a new one in the book called life...a chapter that they will continue writing in for the next 11 years and even more!!

That is when they met for the 1st time and struck a cord in eachother's heart...a string that continues delivering sweet music since then till now!!

They've had their share of "not-so-good" days (I refrain from saying "bad" because they never really have had those) but have always come out clean and sailing...Still an event of class 8th is fresh in the mind...but that rough time only made them grow closer...and nurtured their friendship!!

Priya's been a bed-rock..."rock of gibralter" all through the school life and somewhere deep down continues to be so...Only that the other one is bad and doesnot make efforts to stay in touch..even though she does want to and never gets her outta heart or thoughts, but this girl Priya,she's always been there trying to get those thoughts into a practical mode and this other one is so very thankful for that!!

Priya, this is the beginning of a brand new chapter in your life and I wish you all the best!! Even though I am bad at showing this but I am so very happy for you....and I will always be there for you, the way you have been!!May this new beginning bring you all the joy and happiness that you ever dreamt of...Every morning 1 of my prayer's is reserved just for you!!

I can safely say that I have found one of my sweetest and most cherished relationship's with you...I am so thankful for that Saturday...I am so thankful for you.....I am so thankful for "us"..

All the best and love you lots!!

The extreme Me!!

Just passing by and i thought i might just stop by for a few lines...a few songs..and a cup of tea!!
Well readin the title anyone might feel that this one post is gonna be a "bragging about me" session!!But it is...."not exactly"!!

There were things that fascinated me..there were things I thought happened to a selected few...there were things i thought were just so far away from me...But the more I thought I was untouched,the more "huggingly" close they seem now!!

Am sure someone out there is already feeling-Here she goes again with her (sumtimes) depressing nonsense talks- but its not depressing...mayb a little "no-sense" talk!!

The thing is lately I've discovered a talent in me...this is a bew found one!!
"The was i swing like a pendulum from one xtreme to another"

I had this notion of being so calm...having this knack of being unfrazzed by anything and everything but now I've realized that I am turning more into an-Either/Or mode...Either I have it or I dont...Either I am happy or I am not..Either I do it or I dont....there seems to be no Maybe in my dictionary now!!

Not sure how good this attitude is...actually it Either is good or it is not!!or should I settle down at -Maybe it is not bad even if its not that good!!

Well.....at the end of this so called "post" am not sure how much "sense" will it eventually make even to me!!