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Have you ever felt like holding on to something for a little longer..a lifetime probably?? Ever felt like undoing and then redoing certain things so that it would all be 'fairy tale' kinds?? Ever felt that you need a complete revamp of sorts?? Ever felt that things need a change, but most importantly, its you who needs a complete change?? Ever felt how absolutely incapable you are, of handling situations, handling people?? Ever felt how absolutely incapable you are of handling happiness, leave alone passing it on to others?? Ever felt miserably distant from something you were at a distance 'huggingly' close?? Ever felt that anything and everything that matters is nowhere in sight?? Ever felt absolutely impossible to be the way you want to be?? Ever felt blank and bursting with thoughts, feelings and emotions at the same time?? Ever felt like just running away..forever and ever and ever??? Ever felt like talking but with no words?? Ever felt like nothing??

Mora Saiyan mose bole na - Fuzon

Saawan Beeto Jaye Pe Harwa
Mann Mera Ghabraye
Aeso Gaye Pardes Piya Tum
Cheyn Humain nahin Aye

Mora Saiyaan moh sey bolay Na
Laakh Jatan Kar Haar Rahi
Mora Saiyyan Moh Say Bolay Na

Tu Jo Nahin to Aisay Piya hum
Jaisay Soona Aanganaa
Nain Tehaari Rah Neeharey
Nainnan Ko Tarsaona

Pyar Tumhain Kitna Kartay Hain
Tum Yeh Samajh Nahin Pao gay
Jab Hum Na Hongay to Peharwa
Bolo Kya Tab Aao gay

Mora Saiyaan moh Sey Bolay Na
Laakh Jatan Kar Haar Rahi

Hope against hope hopen....

I never really liked this phrase - " Hope against hope hopen", though it always made that 'xing thing' sound..if you know what I mean....But it now seems that the 'xing thing' actually has become the 'jinxed thing' for me...

Do we actually hope against hope?? And what happens then?? Does the hope win or the 'against hope' part return victorious?? Silly questions with am sure no answers whatsoever!

Guess its just a state of mind that I am in right now, which aint that 'sunny'!!! Actually i am trying to contemplate whether it is me or the forces around which are not in the 'best of health and spirits'!!

To All Who End Up Reading This:: Kindly do not think a lot!! Just a phase when I write just for my understanding!

Just a bit longer....

Just read it somewhere-

"Leaf's departure is because of the wind's pursuit. Or because the tree didn't ask her to stay......"

Simple and yet so true...Sometimes, even if we want to hold on to something, for just a bit longer, it is what we want that matters....It is whether that wants to stay on with us or not....It does not always matter whether you want to let go or not. Sometimes its the other way round!

Sweet temptation syndrome!

I think i love chocolates for precisely 2 reasons...

one off course cause i love them! (How obvious was that ;) ) But more than that..the other reason strikes out...its probably 1 of the most relaxing therapies that I have ever found to calm me down....

Its wrong but I somehow am addicted to this chocolate thingy! There are times when you feel absolutely helpless and down and out kinds....I think more than anything I desparately need a chocolate then....I am addicted....

And if this is addiction..then I think I am addicted...addicted to you! (that goes beyond chocolates :))

Some days are like that.....

How many times do we get that too good too bad feeling???? I do...almost always..either the world seems such a beautiful place...its like that 'heaven on earth' kinda feeling or it tends to be the 'hellish' experience! But the heavenly ones always help you leave behind the hellish ones...and thats not intentional off course..but it just happens..I think its with all, not just me..that we tend to get all 'high' on the 'good' part...but with me..i guess i just live those moments...and then re-live them...again and again and again...thats how I am, I guess...living the fairy tale over and over again....probably this makes the bad ones worst....

Why cant we just be happy....content....always....why do we need to be a part of those situations where in you cant really help anything..its that helpless feeling....we dont really need that! I dont for sure.....But no one ever has been able to run away from those...

There always are those highs and lows......but its the lows which actualy make the highs 'high'....if that makes any sense!!!!!!!I think it does to me.....;)

But the lows for me..are just too low to actually get out of sometimes!!! I think have had enough of these..i need a little high for sumtime..a lifetime wud do......and not many things or people can give me that!

Words...

"She whispered his name with the deliberation of a child trying out the distinct sounds. When he replied with her name, it sounded like a new word- the syllables remained the same, the meaning was different. Finally he spoke the three simple words that no amount of bad art or bad faith can ever quite cheapen. She repeated them, with exactly the same slight emphasis on the second word, as though she were the one to say them first. He had no religious belief but it was impossible not to think of an invisible witness or presence in the room, and that these words spoken aloud were like signatures on an unseen contract."