Alone....the topic of my new post too..how strange....is it me or is it the way things actually are....why do i feel am all alone???why do i feel left out??why do i feel not wanted????
This truely is a strange little world of thoughts!!! One moment i believe that i am a happy little kid and the other moment i feel like being tossed here and there....
Maybe i gotta learn to be content and happy with my ownself....afterall no one owes me anything!!!No one is obliged to take me in their life.....noone.....
Its just me, myself and noone else.....its just about me keeping myself happy.......but this is such a hard thing to do.....such an uphill task!!!!!
I just hope to do justice to this life that i have been given.......thats the least i can hope for!!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Alone!!!
Alone…after so long….its all so calm….its all so quite….its just me and no one else around!!
It feels like I somehow am enjoying this “silence” around me!! Giving me some time to relax…ponder……and write!!
Even though I don’t know what exactly I want to write about-is it my day so far, my vacations, my friends or just plain and simple ME…I’ve not figured it out yet!! But I think I am just going to follow my sweet little train of thoughts until it stops at a small station. A station filled with an intoxicating smell of rain that has just drenched the water thirsty land…….a station I gleefully would like to come to every now and then!!
Life’s a funny thing….sometimes you feel so left out while the very next moment nothing can be more exciting…that’s how things keep happening with me!!
Never has a day passed without me thinking a lot about it!! Sometimes I feel “not-needed”, sometimes I feel so alive, sometimes I am so excited, sometimes I am so lost….
No matter how hard I try but I just can’t seem to maintain the balance…..how ironic is that…..I am a Libran……my sign is that of a balance!!
I just realized how well I tried to write about “the station” but how hard it is for me to write about my life….write about me!!
Sometimes I feel how wonderful it would have been had I just stayed as a kid…..a kid so free…free not only in terms of independence but free from all of life’s tensions….
But guess I am just made for this kind of life……probably that’s how I like it- a rollercoaster ride….I am not the one who will be satisfied with a monotonous routine….
We all need a bit of spice in our lives….
And here it halts- my train!!
I realize it was a bumpy ride…it started from somewhere and ended somewhere else….but that’s ok…..I am glad the station it stopped at, is wonderfully fresh….it still is glistening with tiny droplets of water….the smell still is intoxicating….and the view, heavenly!!
It feels like I somehow am enjoying this “silence” around me!! Giving me some time to relax…ponder……and write!!
Even though I don’t know what exactly I want to write about-is it my day so far, my vacations, my friends or just plain and simple ME…I’ve not figured it out yet!! But I think I am just going to follow my sweet little train of thoughts until it stops at a small station. A station filled with an intoxicating smell of rain that has just drenched the water thirsty land…….a station I gleefully would like to come to every now and then!!
Life’s a funny thing….sometimes you feel so left out while the very next moment nothing can be more exciting…that’s how things keep happening with me!!
Never has a day passed without me thinking a lot about it!! Sometimes I feel “not-needed”, sometimes I feel so alive, sometimes I am so excited, sometimes I am so lost….
No matter how hard I try but I just can’t seem to maintain the balance…..how ironic is that…..I am a Libran……my sign is that of a balance!!
I just realized how well I tried to write about “the station” but how hard it is for me to write about my life….write about me!!
Sometimes I feel how wonderful it would have been had I just stayed as a kid…..a kid so free…free not only in terms of independence but free from all of life’s tensions….
But guess I am just made for this kind of life……probably that’s how I like it- a rollercoaster ride….I am not the one who will be satisfied with a monotonous routine….
We all need a bit of spice in our lives….
And here it halts- my train!!
I realize it was a bumpy ride…it started from somewhere and ended somewhere else….but that’s ok…..I am glad the station it stopped at, is wonderfully fresh….it still is glistening with tiny droplets of water….the smell still is intoxicating….and the view, heavenly!!
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