5th sept 2006
Jus day of my life...even though i knew it would surely bring about changes i am unwilling to adapt to but will have to for the benefit of two very important people in my life. One was ME, myself while the other.....the other part of me!!!
Sometimes we stand at the cross roads of life...where we have to make a few decisions....sum tough ones...decisions that just might change our lives...decisions that are sometimes not so good while as sometimes they are The best!!!
It is hard to figure out which way to go..what path to choose....sometimes all that is required for you is to take a stand and leave the rest to the one above....and i know....i might not be His 'bestest' child but am not the worst either!!! I know He'll make sure i've made the right decision for both...
This is a tough day...a tougher night lies ahead....n probably toughest times.....I just hope to sail through!!
And most of all..I just hope the times ahead bring happiness and calm to 'us'.
P.S:: To whom it concerns
I hope the intention is understood...All the best....The moments will always be cherished..They'll always be special!!
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Dear Vatsala,
Tough no doubt.
Right,no doubt.
This transition state was never going to be easy enough.
But here comes a scent of a fresh air.
Bravo!Bravo!Bravo!
None of us can predict future accurately,but it shouldn't be THAT tough.
Be there and then.
All the best!
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what r u talking about?
Vatsala your "other part" believes you sent this letter to him.
Today I was sitting alone in this cute place,and imagining you were with me.
I had fixed this pseudo-"appointment" with you ... and I believed you would be there.
But then the reality hit me.You weren't there physically.
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I'm not really controlling the events in my life.
The best I'm doing is just telling you whatever I can,here.
Come out of this box,Vatsala.
If it doen't really harm anyone, then "those moments" need to fill all of my life.
who r u?
who r u?
who r u???
who r u???-vatsala
Vatsala you were looking cute in your pink suit yesterday,as always.
I like the yellow one most.
I just forgot to apologize for standing below your house that day.
I'm Gaurav!
Gaurav.........i am supposed to know u????u were standing below my house???when????
Vatsala you'n continue blogging.
I believe I should've stayed here.
No you're not supposed to know me.
All this was just a figment of my imagination.
But thanks from deep down.
Just for being there.
Somewhere someone seems to have imposed very tough rules on me.
They need to swallow that your beauty will continue to inspire many,in a way they'n only dream of.
Gaurav.
(Juda hoke bhi,tu mujhme kahin baki hai)
Dude, shut it. For once and for all, just get over it. I am not interested in anything you have to say, as I have made clear time and again. If you claim any innocence on your part, then now, please go away.
OK cool down.
The hardest thing's to say goodbye.
I'm going nowhere.
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What else apart from all this.
What about tennis.
Agassi's gone.
It's a totally new set of players now.
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You chose a path...
It's pretty simple...a long road ahead...
I'll never be the 1st to leave.
Aandhiyon se jhagad rahi hai lau meri,
Ab mashaalon si jal rahi hai lau meri...
I'm coming.
Hi Vatsala, how do you write so right? I felt as if you have written down what I felt to write, but couldn't get words.
Please ckeck your mail, you will find a mail from me. You may help me if you like.
A girl starting off in a quest to find herself..she wants be left alone yet find someone..she wanna be free but still wanna hang on..the satisfaction :- she is not alone..everyone..goes through this..and everyone figures out for himself/herself...in moments of dilemma..the only thing to rememeber..never be rude/arrogant to somebody ..u will never know what the other person is going through..things will be resolved in due course of time..but some ppl go that far that they never come back..never..and you know it better than anyone else..why wait till the point that ppl go to the extreme point of no return..why miss someone only when he/she is not there?????...
Today was quite a day.
Nothing that she says to me or does to me can hurt me.
Maybe I tried to talk too much today.
Today was a day when I simply forgot the existence of the sane world around me.
But yes,my honor was a bit hurt today.
As I look back at the events of the day,I begin to question when exactly'll things go my way.
When exactly'll I be listened to?
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Whatever happened today made me look around at all that's not beautiful from outside.
I felt the heart of all the poor ones I saw today.I questioned the sanity of the way I did whatever I did today.
Point's,is she ready to be as close to me,as I feel I'm to her?.
Where am I directing myself?
Am I as important to her as she's to me?
Howcome the GUARDS were brought into picture?
I mean here I'm after all this stuff...
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But the mistake I did today was to completely close my mind.
Yes that was a mistake.
From hereon,the question in my mind's how and when?
Also where'm I heading.
Honestly,I would've shed a drop of MY(AND ONLY MY) blood or 2,if not for myself being answerable to my immediate family.
TODAY I HAD A PURPOSE.
I can't continue to be mindful of the surroundings any longer.
I've to have to have to decide on the exact status of this bond.
That's got to happen sooner than later.
And I guess this blog isn't the way to do it.
I CAN'T THINK OF WHAT OTHERS ARE THINKING NOW.
AND if she's got to be mine,nor'n she.
I've to shoot ahead in my life.
There're innumerable aspirations I've to address.
It's a point in my life where I CAN'T THINK ABOUT WHAT OTHERS'RE OBSERVING.
TODAY WAS EXACTLY THAT DAY.
I truly respect my goals now.
They're big.I didn't want to say this,but yes SHE's a part of all that purpose.
I CAN'T DO IT ALONE.
Every moment I've to have her beside me.That time has come.
Atleast in my life.I'm looking beyond love,into what effects that love'n exactly have in my life.
I've seen highs in my life.
Right now I need to shoot to a real real REAL REAL HIGH.
I'm into all this exactly for that.
It's no longer a question of a casual frendship.It's a matter of heart and soul.
This is effectively my last post.
I didn't fake it all.
And yes,I'm innocent.
I'm innocent.
All that I say comes straight from the heart.It isn't a device to come close to you.
Whenever I saw you earlier,or see you now,I see you as innocent.
But today was an extreme of sorts.
It made me ask me who am I.
Why was I there.
It was a 1st time experience of my life.
In my world I'm the king.
I don't take a no.
And I know a no never came from you.
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What I post here on the blog doesn't make me a different person from what you saw me to be.
But I won't be waiting any longer.
And yes,I wouldn't be posting on anyone's blogs.
But yes,I'll be giving a weightage to the amount of effort I put into this blog,and yes feelings too.
Atleast in my mind this is going to be the definitive love story of my life.
There's a probability that I don't approach any girl at all from now.
This to prove to myself that I truly loved you.
But I'll be thinking a lot hard why exactly you behaved the way you did today.Somewhere it hit me.
From hereon I'm going to question the premium I've placed on external beauty till date.
That my postings of the last 2 months be answered in this way is going to have an impact on the way I live from hereon.
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Where exactly am I going?
To all that doesn't seem beautiful from outside.
There's a sizable population of this kind all around me.
The very purpose of my life is defined:To give them love,to make them happy in whatever way I can.
I'm a guy of the highest honor.
This day'll never be forgotten in my life.
And yes,I'll continue to feel the way I did for you.Only that I won't be approaching you.
God bless you.
Alvida.
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