Alone....the topic of my new post too..how strange....is it me or is it the way things actually are....why do i feel am all alone???why do i feel left out??why do i feel not wanted????
This truely is a strange little world of thoughts!!! One moment i believe that i am a happy little kid and the other moment i feel like being tossed here and there....
Maybe i gotta learn to be content and happy with my ownself....afterall no one owes me anything!!!No one is obliged to take me in their life.....noone.....
Its just me, myself and noone else.....its just about me keeping myself happy.......but this is such a hard thing to do.....such an uphill task!!!!!
I just hope to do justice to this life that i have been given.......thats the least i can hope for!!
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go 4 it..
choose tht path of solitude n stick by it, for as much time as u want to..dont set deadlines of comin back..dont leav trails..float, jus float along ur own ownself..cease contemplating the implications of distancing urself..go on..
but..
a day will come(n will, for sure) when u'll feel awfully empty n miserable, in a way cumpletely unknown to u..thts ur cue..pack ur stuff n come back..get down frm the bus n u'll find nearly everybdy waiting for u, wth arms wide open..n u'll feel sumthng tht'll b all unknown, again..it'll be sumthng out of this world..dont b surprised if u find urself smiling real hard rite thr..
after tht, never b alone, ever again..
Eventually one does have to face that unfamiliar situation where you are surrounded by starangers, but you'll adapt yourself to it so soon you'll surprise yourself.
And friends can never be too far. :)
@pourush>> pretty late that i am commentin on ur comment..even though i xactly knew wht i wanted to say but jus didnt write... but sum1 jus told me i was bein rude by not doin so.....n hence i finally decided to pen down my thoughts....
well i jus xpect xactly wht u've written to happen to me....but i sumhow feel thts not how things r...ppl do move on..life changes..ppl change....so its even more scary to actually think that if sumday i decide to come back....i mite b stuck ....in a lonely life..................
so, wat ur tryin to say is tht u luv bein alone rite now, bt are really scared tht 'sumhow' when u r done wth being alone, thr is a strong possibility tht the ppl,on whom u walked out in the first place, ppl whom u left on b on ur own, wud hav second thoughts in taking u back in their lives..
1. yes, tht may b the case..that can happen n u cant do much abt it..
2. in one way, it wud filter out ur 'real frnds' from the others..ur real ones wud always wait for u..(if u hav doubts even on tht, i cant add nethng more)..
v r talkin abt ppl who want to stay by ur side n help u wth all this..v r talkin abt ppl for whom it is imperative tht u do cum back..ppl to whom u matter..the others, if they change, i wudnt supppose u shud b too srprsed coz in one way or the other, they wud hav been 'the reasons' to make u go in2 ur shell in the first place!!
You're alone for 2 reasons:
a)You didn't try hard enough to get near someone
b) Someone who wanted to be near (your head and heart) didn't try hard enough to do so
By "near"ness I mean a close companionship...
You've to run down the memory lane to track few such people.
Maybe one of them never told you, but he misses you all the time...
There's definitely someone...I'm sure.
"Definitely not alone!!!"
In the first place,it's possible to grossly misunderstand people...for ex. someone who unintentionally sounds loud and rude when he wants to be soft and polite,and probably affectionate.
Maybe you weren't able to spend a decent amount of time with a single person to understand him well enough.
I'm sure he wants to shout it loud to you,that you're the one for him, for now, and forever.
@anonymous>>mayb v all tried hard enuf but nothin clicked!!!
@pourush>>i agree..mayb i'll filter down to my true frnds[:)]
i suppose now that the life is back..runnin in the fast lane...no time to think bout how alone i am...no time at all!!!![:)]
I somehow feel involved here.
We can direct our lives along any lane of our choice...it depends a lot on what we are capable of thinking and executing.
One Bill Gates,for instance,said he could resurrect the entire microsoft within 10 years even if his entire empire was wiped out.
Like you said,there isn't much time to think about your lonliness.The implicit idea here is that starting from a certain stage in one's life,one's WORK defines how one passes time,and also the people with whom one spends that time.
Quite possibly,it's going to be someone from your field of work who's going to remove the solitude in your life.You know,in addition to work,you could chill out a lot,catch a movie or 2,maybe have some coffee around.
By the way,did someone ever suggest you the same,say,within the last 2 years? Maybe he's as wiling as ever.
Come on over.
He was and is waiting.
He will wait.No matter what.
Do char kadam pe tum they
Do char Kadam pe hum they
Do char kadam ye lekin
Sau meelon se kya kadam they...
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Aaya hai aaj labhon pe
Ye pyaar badi mushkil se...
Not a Salman Khan song,but from another famous Khan movie.
well place of work.....mayb i will find such a person...n last 2 yrs....hard luck...its been none!!!!
You didn't find that person,but you can't certainly say that that person didn't find you.
If only you had figured out the extent to which he was going to take you in his life,not only you,but no less importantly,HE would be in a happy and peaceful state of mind.
As much as you need him,he needs you.
But better late than never.
So maybe he's kind of going to give it another shot,you know,kind of straightaway going to tell you that he'n no longer afford to stay away from you.
So just let him be.
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There's a practical side to this state of "companionship crisis".
The "other half",as I would like to call that companion,enables one to see life in a more complete way.
The most optimum possible success in that boy's life depends a hell lot on his interactions(i mean mental,conversational etc.) with that girl(and vice-versa).
The only direction,then,is to look forward.
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By the way,did someone ever ask you more than once for your coveted mobile-no.,say,within the last 2 years?
Maybe he was kind of hesitant to say all this and a lot more,in person.
mobile no......well....dunno...dun remember!!!
by the way....m i supposed to knw u??
Ya you are.
Would you like to get on a live chat with me?
OK I'll let you know I'm exactly the guy I've been talking about.
Eventually you'll know who that guy is.
Probably we'll stay in touch for the next 50 years,atleast through the net.
(Only after your consent.OK . I CARE.)
cud v plz go back to bloggin, my dear..i gues this topic was over wth ur mention tht 'life is back in the fast lane'(a fact i was not amused to read in the first place, makes the comments luk irrelevant)..plz delete this comment if u find it offending in any capacity u feel, but, mr. anonymous, get her(or try getting her) thru the usual channels..
That's exactly the problem...a 2nd or 3rd guy interfering when he's not required to.
Mr. POURUSH,why did YOU need to enter when atleast I didn't ask you to.
And,MAKE IT CLEAR,she could have written this herself.
YOU ARE NOT AN AUTHORITY ON THIS.
MIND YOUR YOUR OWN BUSINESS.
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I RESPECT HER OPINION,WHETHER SILENCE OR SPEECH.
PERIOD.
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I won't be posting any more comments here.
And this is for Mr. Pourush and guys like him,there's no parameter to measure to whom "she" is dearest...the last thing required of you guys is to INTERFERE.
oh mr. anonymous!! i am so vry sorry for creating ripples in ur otherwise smooth 'building up' exercise..hope i didnt put u off ur apetite..don wrry, u carry on wth ur self righteous affair..
i am also sorry on behalf of all the ppl 'who are my kinds', who have been 'insulted' wth no fault of their own..its jus tht ppl like us never wud've thought 'blogging' cud be of this use too(wat ur using it for)!! my sincere apologies mate..u can carry on..i'll take back my comment(in a while), if it really puts u off..
u can b rest assured abt me interfering again, i wont b a 'problem' now..njoy..
christ! m outta here!!..
whts happenin here!!!!
pourush>>>u really think this is so imp that v need to fite over it?!!??
annonymous>>>look if u wanna say who u r do it..u dnt wanna say dnt...but stop decidin for urself as to who needs to interfere n who does not....if u hv freedom to speech so does every other person...so please end this cat fite!!
Since Vatsala says,anyone willing to speak his/her mind is welcome.
I HAD to come back,because I've to get some things right.
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Vatsala,I just hope you'n do some guesswork to identify me.
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And yes,all of us would like to go where your sweet little train of thoughts'n take us...so do continue blogging!!
I have something to speak about myself.
To you.
I don't know how to continue here. Suddenly I seem to have lost focus.
annonymous>>look i m not here to guess who is who....so jus cut it!!
As you wish.
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